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Reminiscing about a time when everything was fine when I had people around me to share a laughter my tears or my dream I found myself smiling with Tears in my eyes what changed??

Obviously the answer lay right in front of my eyes the strings which pulled me back that time today they have loosened up somehow today I may be free but I have no one to listen to me now…

You think you understand me???

You think you understand me?
I can hear you speak, you see?

You go on about my perfect life.
You have no idea of the pain and the strife.

You don’t know about how I stress.
Worried to know if you’ll like the way I dress.

Worried to know if you’ll see past my look.
To find out it I like sports, hugs, or books.

All you see is the careless look I show.
So you automatically know me? No.

You only see the sarcasm, and the “I don’t care”
You only see perfect clothes and hair.

You don’t take the time to find out my fears.
Which is why every night, ends in tears.

BROKEN

If I turned around and walked away, would you notice I’m gone,
Would you even care?
When you look at me, do you see the smile on my face,
Or do you see the tears I fight to hold inside?
Do you see a strong, willful woman I portray,
Or the scared little girl who never quite goes away?
If I broke down and lost all control,
Would you know how to handle me,
Would you hold me ’til I stop shaking,
Kiss away all of my tears?
Would you know how to lift me up
From a place far below recognition?
You see a sexy, loving woman,
But I’m so much more.
I’m sad,
I’m lonely,
I’m unpredictable,
I’m broken,
I’m irrational,
I’m complicated.
You say you want me,
But you don’t even know.
You see who I let you see,
Who I’ve always let you see,
But what about the real me,
The everyday me,
The girl who never seems to get anything right
The one who could break down at any given moment
And have no clue why.
I try so hard to fight away my doubts
For a while they bury themselves away,
So far away that I think they’re gone forever,
But I guess nothing lasts forever,
Because the pain and tears always find their way back to me.
Can you handle me,
Can you handle ALL of me?
Am I worth the time,
Do you really love me enough
To stand by me through all my troubles,
Or am I just too broken for you?

Just look into my eyes

Look into my eyes

Tell me what you see

It won’t be happy

It won’t be pretty

The way I act

makes me seem happy

It makes me feel fine

but look into my eyes there you will see

see the hurt

see the hate

In my eyes and the seem distance

look into my eyes

there you will see everything everything a hold inside

That you will see me!!

Mom are you listing to me???

Helloo..
Mom are you Listing to me
i dont know why but …
i think you hate me
u think i am loser but no mom
i am your talented child…
You think i want your money
You think i want your status
You think i want your everthing which you are surrounded
TRUE
I want your love
I want your affection
I want your priority
Yes I want your everything but not your money and status
I want you not as a mom but as a best friend as a sister although i have but you never understand me why?? I dont know…. Thts why you leve me na without saying goodbye to me…..(in kitchen)

Why do i write POEM??

Why do i write poem?

It is an art for me

To express my self by the words

To express my sorrow

To express my Grin

To express my Swollen

To express my Fondness

To express my Morale

To express what people are not understanding by my wordsthrough the POEM….

Take me back

How could I be so stupid

to let you ship away

I had you in my arms but I let you ship away

I want you back but now it’s too late

I have already said Goodbye and now love has turned to hate

I want to go back in time and fix all that was wrong change all my regrets so we didn’t fight As Long

The regrets are what messed it up and they were all my fault I was so immature I should have acted like an adult I broke my own Heart when I wanted out on you now it’s too late and I can’t undo I still love you but nobody knows we are no longer together because of what I choose it was a bad decision and now I want you here never far away always near so please take me back and catch me when I fall cause I need you right now more than anything at all…

I knew i couldn’t have you

Everything was different Everyday was different

I knew i couldn’t have you And i know why!!!

I knew the day we met that we are meant to be

I thought our fate was set that youwere the one for me

I only knew your name but i didnt knew who you are I wasn’t sure what to do i didnt know who to blame

I knew i tjought you attractive I could tell that you were nice when ever i heard your name butterflies were so active that i couldn’t think twice

Everytime i saw you and want to talk to uou but suddenly i refuse

Everytime my eyes are fixed on you i knew I was trying to see you if you saw me when I was seeing you than my heart skips a beat and i dont know what to do when i saw you with oyher girls I shouldn’t be jelouse because you were never ever MINE!!!

Enjoy life!!!

Life’s too short to be wasted.
It passes just once, so make the most out of it.
Live life the way you want it to be.
Live it to the fullest, feel free!

Live as the sun shines in the sky.
Live as high as the birds can fly.
Live as the colors of a rainbow.
Live as far as the clouds can go.

Never waste it with worthless doubts and fears,
With insecurities and useless tears.
Remember that what couldn’t tear you makes you strong.
Put away frustrations, sing your own song!

Believe in what you can do.
The world is round; it’s all up to you.
Think fast, act now!
Time is gold; it couldn’t be renewed.

Value experiences, learn from mistakes.
Improve for the better, live for others.
Do what is right and what is best.
Always be yourself, unique from the rest.

Laugh as if there’s no tomorrow.
Dance as though you’ll never get through.
Love with all your heart and soul.
Sing like you’re on the top of the world.

Forget the money, the root of all evil.
Treasure your loved ones; you’re lucky they’re still there.
Strengthen your faith, live with God.
The best things in life are for free, so why not?!

Nobody’s Priority

I put a lot of effort into people

Who put way too little effort into me.

Maybe i learned this from childhood i thought i was a dady’s girl but now i realised i was wrong….. Because of that incident….

When ever he was with me i found my self alone…

I want a person who will cross oceans for someone not like me..

I want a person who wouldn’t cross a puddle for me because that is how you make the world a brighter place but it can be unbearble feeling like i am never anyone’ s priority…..

###Well ik its lil bit confusing but i dont no i just want to post it so post..bare with this !! . 😁🙈😂